Head-swivelling toughness leading to this post...

SPM报考10科已成为事实了。说真的，这有一点扼杀学生报考科目的自由。但有什么法子呢？好多人都劝我别放弃华文，因为在外头没得学华文。我也觉得身为华人子弟，应该拿华文，不然报考华文的人数就持续下降。虽然是较难拿A1，但为了传承华人5000年的文化着想，唯有努力一些咯......

又隐居了好一段日子。这次的隐居，是为了亚庇区辩论比赛。幸亏在转校前有这两年的训练底子，我才能在乐育毫无他人的帮助下，自我训练，并教导队友，因为在他们当中不少是新人，甚至没接触过辩论。在得知亚庇区有选拔赛的消息时，我们仅剩两星期的时间，同一道辩题还需准备两方。我们几乎每天都留下来，甚至礼拜天的时间也牺牲了。其实这是相当不足的，因为要把一些同学从零转化到能应对其他学校老将，两星期又能做得了什么呢？无论如何，最后的成绩却让我们的付出有所回报。然而，得到了冠军，并不代表我校实力强。我承认，我们当天的表现，连我自己本身的表现，都是平平而已。得到了冠军和最佳辩员的殊荣，我却不断自责，不断愧疚，只因当我回想及看录影带时，我发现我的表现中存在着许多弊病，应该可以做得更好的。可是，为了避免让自己的情绪低落下去，我尝试往正面想：这是我首次担任结辩一职，在几乎没有任何训练的情况下，能做到如此应该挺不错了；而我自由辩较前两年也有了进步。我会自责、愧疚，表示我会反省，表示我还有进步的空间。何况裁判都肯定了我，我为何不自我肯定呢？

即将来临的全州赛，又是一个全新的开始。届时，面对的全是高手，而现在得做的，是更多更多的准备功夫。我没有期望些什么，只期望能汲取经验。目前，我也了解到，国中与独中辩论准备过程是迥然不同的。到了新的环境，就要有新的应对心态。

Debate is not merely a competition. It's about teamwork, about how every teammate cooperates with each other and is willing to sacrifice. The competition lasts for only half an hour, but you need to spend at least several tens hours to prepare for it. The process is, frankly, a hardship to encounter, moreover without others' help. Therefore, down the stage, debate is actually a test on your resilience, tenacity, determination, diligence as well as your willingness to sacrifice. Whilst on the stage, debate is a test on your steadiness, wit, confidence, technique as well as how you utilize your information and even your prior knowledge. The outcome of debate depends pretty much on the cooperation between teammates. If one of them is not cooperative, then I should say everything is over. I admit that the happiness at winning the competition is not usually commensurate with the worry and sacrifice leading to it. However, it's the worry and sacrifice which make you grow up, make you open your eyes and make you realise the saying "as you sow, so as you reap". If losing the competition, you should feel honoured and fortunate to be able to involve yourself in debate. At least you've gained a lot of knowledge which you couldn't find in any textbooks and most important, you've made new friends, haven't you?

I could tell that debate has made me grow up a lot, really. It makes me believe in myself that I could juggle my time between studying and practising. It makes me have the courage and confidence to speak in front of public. It makes me possess leadership. It makes me mature in thinking. It has brought about so many advantages to me. So if I am given the opportunity to continue be involved in debate, how could I let the chance go?

痴痴地等，伤透脑筋......

SPM报考10科已不再是新鲜话题。然而，教育部却始终没有作出一个明确的决定。每天都痴痴地待在收音机旁，报章一到手便使劲地“挖掘”，希望能看见相关报道。可是，每次看见的只是教育部的计划，以及各界人士的意见，心中的疑问始终得不到解答。不断在想：10科，我还得放弃4科，有这么多“无谓”科目让我放弃吗？若真的是10科，那就代表我必须放弃美术了。但，至今没有消息证明这一建议即将落实，而美术又有一个复杂的project等着我完成。去做，又怕到最后徒然浪费心思与时间；不去做，又怕不能在少过一个月的时间内完成。结果，到现在仍然未开工，每天守在收音机及网上新闻前，换来的却是一次又一次的失望......

一波未平，一波又起。今天傍晚又“杀出”新消息：教育部思考英文是否该列为大马教育文凭须及格科目。天啊！为何不尽快解决之前的课题，再来慢慢计划之后的“改革”呢？我可是心急如焚呀！唉......总觉得教育部近来喜爱提出一些惊人的建议，却迟迟没能有个决定，让莘莘学子的脑袋里充满无数个问号。不是说在上星期讨论这课题吗？怎么到今天音信全无？看来我还得痴痴地等待，脑袋瓜再大多几寸了......

Who's The Main Character? =.="

感觉像“隐居”了一段日子，现在应该是时候blogging了......

Yesterday I went out with my sis and her friends to 1 Borneo. Just before Ah Chua arrived at our house to give us a lift, I had a terrible stomachache and was wondering if I would be able to hang out with them or not. Fortunately it did not last for a long time and it went out just within minutes! Heaved a sigh of relief...

We went for dinner straight away as soon as we reached 1 Borneo. We had quite a sumptuous dinner at New York City. I shared a 9-inch-king-size Giant Yankee Chicken burger with my sis, Hui Wen and Karen. I couldn't believe my eyes when the waitress served the burger. Even a quarter of it is more than enough for a person! When I was about to take the burger, everyone started taking the french fries around the burger. I realised that I have quite a different habit with others, even with my own friends, which is having burger before having french fries. So I just followed them and took the french fries. It was as if no one dared to move the parts of burger out of its orderly arrangement until sis took one part for me. The meat kept dropping off from the bread though I tried my best to push it inside and inside, and finally I surrendered to the "obstinate" "hyperactive" chicken meat and just left the dropped-out pieces in my plate, enjoying the burger in my hands. Every mouthful of the burger was a new yet superb taste to me. While we had started savouring the burger, my sis was stil enjoying the french fries (without her awareness I supposed, since she always put french fries as her priority whenever there are french fries). That's why she claimed that she had already been full even though she hadn't even had a bite of her burger! She asked me to help her a little with her burger (hey, I almost finished my own part at that moment! I was already halfway full la!) Since nobody could lend her a "mouth", she had to force herself to finish it (some bread was still left on the plate at the end).

Mouth-watering Chicken Yankee Burger!


After dinner, we proceeded to walk around. Everywhere was seemed to be flooded by crowds, with the anticipation for Jolin. So we had to go upstairs by elevator. We decided to watch the show from upstairs (from a far far distance), but even the place there was such crowdy! We managed to get ourselves a not-very-nice place, which we had to move our heads and tiptoed to be slightly able to take a "peep" of the show. Long we stood, moving here and there, yet the main character still hadn't come into our sight. Sweat kept flowing from my head through my hair. FINALLY she came out with four dancers and started her performance. She sang and danced energetically, even my sis highly complimented her performance (well, she didn't talk much about Jolin before that).

After her performance, we continued walking around. Karen is really a veteran in those cosmetics and make up stuff. I had sought a few things I wanted quite desperately in Sasa. Wondering when I would be able to go there again and buy all those stuff I want...I even opened my eyes watching the two 'KKLS'(my sis's idea bcz she said all the students there except my sis's badge are of low qualities, with serious,horrible,terrible and vegetable psyco and mental problem!!hahaha!!and what I saw last night was really a fact and it proved that what my sis said was corrrect!^^") girls surreptitiously following my sis all the way up the escalator! Seemed like meeting with another Jolin huh?? I was wondering...Jolin should be signing her grand signatures on her albums, how come she emerged at the escalator at the same moment?Jolin, Christ'na,傻傻分不清楚? LOL Their acts were hilarious and extremely strange...

At around 10pm, we went for supper at Kolombong. I forced myself to have a dumpling..Haha.. Well, in a nutshell, it was trully fun to hang out with sis's friends. Funny and amusing topics will be popped out from their mouths from time to time and you'll never feel bored being with them. Thanks for letting me having an outing spree with you guys...=)

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Today I went for lunch with my ex-classmates at Maple cafe. When I saw Adam, I was somehow scared by his appearance. Please, Adam, eat a bit more and don't scare others even in the morning! He's so skinny that I'd thought I saw a walking skeleton! LOL

I was late for about 45 minutes...Sorry to Vincent, Nelson, Denise and Gloria...Forgive me please...But I wasn't the latest one ^^ When I went through the menu, I found that almost every food and drinks have been more expensive. Oh man... I ordered my favourite avocado juice, but to my disappointment there was no more avocado. So instead I ordered papaya milk ( deliberately? XP). I wasn't that hungry, so I ordered garlic bread. "No garlic." What?! Why everything I ordered had run out of stock? Then I ordered mushroom soup. The waitress suddenly let out a raucous and somehow impatient "HUH?", making me almost doing the same thing. I thought I had pronounced the name wrongly or whatsoever, but I didn't. Finally realised that she didn't hear what I said clearly...but can't she ask again politely instead of "HUH?" and showing a scowling expression?

Having quite a period of time chatting with my friends...My happiness wasn't commensurate with my grieve afterwards when I realised that the ribbon of my right high-heeled-shoe fell off somewhere! It couldn't be seen along the stairs up to my house and I'm pretty sure it had been falled off in damai...Haiz..careless me. This is the second time the ribbon of my shoes fell off. But what to do? I've to utilize my creativity to redecorate my shoes...